This space has been neglected for about three months.
My birthday was simply spent with my fav people in my life. A very drastic change from the previous year which I would very much prefer not to elaborate. I learnt that people come and go, not everyone stays with you for life and not everyone is really a sincere friend.
I always thought being popular, having tons of friends was a awesome thing. Till I reach the ripe age of being twenty that I understood it was not exactly awesome.
I have to admit I lost friends in the midst of my pursue of an exciting life in university, some of which I actually managed to got back with. But some were just gone, like that, forever. Despite whatever I’ve done, you still choose to walk out of my life. I feel like an idiot sometimes. I wanted to tell you so much how much I miss you but you seem so far from me now. I know we can never be the way we used to be. But I just want to say I really miss you and those that I’ve supidly neglected in my ignorant pursue.
This has been on the back of my head for about a year and I’ve never feel good about it. I’m serious.
I finally broke down yesterday. It was an very awful feeling when your heart wretch so badly cause you know once you have lost them, you have really lost them and there is no way they will come back, forever.
I have and am still learning to appreciate the current and new friendships that I’ve make over time. I swear I’m never going to be an idiot again.
Till then, lotsa love,
Matilda
